I've lost my best friend yesterday, in a very messy and horrible fight. Granted, she wasn't a very good friend, and overall it was probably for the best that we are no longer friends. We've had big fights before, but I'd always forgiven here, and that just leads us in circles. This time, I want to cut the toxic relationship out of my life. But it isn't easy. We were friends for eight years. Super close for a very long time. I have the support of one of my other closest friends and my family, but I feel like I want more friends. People who can relate to me.
I'm naturally shy because of insecurities, so it's hard for me to make friends. I am a little lonely now, and thought that I should at least gather the courage to make some friends on my own to start an emotional healing process. Even if it starts online. I believe that sometimes online-friends can actually become true friends.
